I got hurt yesterday. I was in a yoga class and something in my right knee popped. Loud. The pop was so loud that everyone in the yoga studio looked over at me. And I thought, “Oh shit.” I calmly sat down on my mat, rubbed my knee, and within a few minutes, excused myself from class.
As I hobbled the nine blocks back to my apartment, I experienced every thought and emotion in the book. “What if’s” and “Oh no’s” and “Damn you’s” and “Why did you’s” and “Not again’s.” I felt frustrated, sad, anxious, angry, scared, and downright devastated. Devastated that I got hurt….again.
Professionally, I’m keenly aware of the psychosocial aspects of injury and re-injury. People who have high negative life stress, low social support, poor coping behaviors, previous injuries, and certain personality traits are more vulnerable to injury. Injured people experience anxiety, depression, low mood, lethargy, insomnia, loss of confidence and self-identity, etc. etc. etc. I know all of this.
To personally feel it is different. Being injured is exhausting. Being injured when you have very few resources and support is even more exhausting. The wisdom from years of hip surgeries and rehabilitation that I’ve managed to put into practice during these last 24 hours entails that I:
1) Breathe. Just breathe in order to slow down my mind/body. It’s normal to be and feel reactive when you’re injured. React as needed and channel the anxious energy out of your body. But as much as you can, just breathe.
2) Strategize. Find local resources that can help. Tap into health professionals, friends, and colleagues who can provide you with an army of healers so you can pursue a course of action that tends to your injury effectively.
3) Rest. Slow down. Sleep. A body that is injured needs time and space to recover.
4). Fuel. Take in elements that will heal your body. Water. Vitamins. Organic foods. Avoid foods and drinks that will exaccerbate your injury (alcohol, refined sugar, fried foods, etc.).
5) Ask. Ask for help. Inform people in your life what you need and hope that they will be available to serve in a supportive capacity.
6) Cry. Scream, cry, laugh…whatever you need to do to move the emotion out of your system so it does not become toxic.
I worked with a wonderful healer this morning. Gabe Luban of Rapid Relief in Santa Monica, CA. He provided the expertise I needed and educated me on what to do/not to do as I manage my injury. During my session with him, I asked questions. I cried. I laughed. And when I left, I felt better. And so the healing process begins.